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  • Mood: Defeated
I need it.

I have not forgotten ANY of those who have made requests and i said i would do them...

I can't. I did a very stupid thing and bit off way more than i was mentally ready for.

I absolutely love making people smile with my art. But my downside to that is i take on too much.

I deal with manic mood swings, and this contributes heavily to these bouts of feeling like i can do anything. I can't. I have my limits, and i have wronged a lot of you by taking on something that i shouldn't have.

I ask for your forgiveness.


My heart aches to leave behind this small room. These fan arts. These doodles. I can do so much more than this!!!

But i keep holding myself back cause of the implied responsibility.

My anxiety is through the roof with dealing with a long time friend who is going through so much right now, and i can't do anything more but be there for them and be a friend.

And it's hard to keep a smile on my friends faces, because they are dealing with depression or doubt....


I love them all. So much. Without them i wouldn't be where i am today.




But, oh my Almighty Lord...i am weary.

I don't know what to do...

All i can do is draw. And now that is being worn out.

My God, i need to get back in touch with myself. I have nothing left to give of myself. I'm on empty.


I have no more to give. Forgive me.

I just need rest. I just need to get away.

I love you all, my Lord i do.

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:iconcoopergal24:
CooperGal24 Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey!

Love your CatDog art! I was wondering if you did art trades or something, cause I'd love to draw you something! ^^
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HeicanStars Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Student General Artist
omg, darling, you surprised me with your points donation ; A ; thank you so much for that, really ;; you didn't have to and it means so much to me omgggg *hugs youuuu* :huggle: you're too sweet ;; 
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Ocelia Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015
Hey! Sorry for the +fav spam but I reaaaally loved some of your Youtubers Fanarts (they're so cute! la in love ) and I gave you a little llama badge too Llama jump Your art is awesome Thumbs Up 
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TheAwkwardKhajiit Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw thank you so very much!
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Ocelia Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2015
you're welcome! :meow:
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Skatercatleader Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015  New member
Sooo ur a catdog fan
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TheAwkwardKhajiit Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep!
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Skatercatleader Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  New member
Sweet man sweet I'm too a catdog fan I loved them since I was nine pretty much I don't watch them cuz I'm 14 so yeah I'm speachless sorry
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ResidentRainbows Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Jekt: Hit us up today yo, we're off! : P
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CillerCitten Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ty so much for the fav and watching me!
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