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  • Mood: Defeated
I need it.

I have not forgotten ANY of those who have made requests and i said i would do them...

I can't. I did a very stupid thing and bit off way more than i was mentally ready for.

I absolutely love making people smile with my art. But my downside to that is i take on too much.

I deal with manic mood swings, and this contributes heavily to these bouts of feeling like i can do anything. I can't. I have my limits, and i have wronged a lot of you by taking on something that i shouldn't have.

I ask for your forgiveness.

My heart aches to leave behind this small room. These fan arts. These doodles. I can do so much more than this!!!

But i keep holding myself back cause of the implied responsibility.

My anxiety is through the roof with dealing with a long time friend who is going through so much right now, and i can't do anything more but be there for them and be a friend.

And it's hard to keep a smile on my friends faces, because they are dealing with depression or doubt....

I love them all. So much. Without them i wouldn't be where i am today.

But, oh my Almighty Lord...i am weary.

I don't know what to do...

All i can do is draw. And now that is being worn out.

My God, i need to get back in touch with myself. I have nothing left to give of myself. I'm on empty.

I have no more to give. Forgive me.

I just need rest. I just need to get away.

I love you all, my Lord i do.


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CrisCanvas Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2015   Digital Artist
Hey man, do you ever take art trades?
Just curious, I'm really in love with your artwork!
unifiedheroes Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2015
ooc. :iconceilingheplz:
TheAwkwardKhajiit Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
CooperGal24 Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist

Love your CatDog art! I was wondering if you did art trades or something, cause I'd love to draw you something! ^^
HeicanStars Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
omg, darling, you surprised me with your points donation ; A ; thank you so much for that, really ;; you didn't have to and it means so much to me omgggg *hugs youuuu* :huggle: you're too sweet ;; 
Ocelia Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015
Hey! Sorry for the +fav spam but I reaaaally loved some of your Youtubers Fanarts (they're so cute! la in love ) and I gave you a little llama badge too Llama jump Your art is awesome Thumbs Up 
TheAwkwardKhajiit Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw thank you so very much!
Ocelia Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2015
you're welcome! :meow:
Skatercatleader Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015  New member
Sooo ur a catdog fan
TheAwkwardKhajiit Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
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